feel myself.

lately my sex drive is totally rampant and out of control and I have no idea what it is.

It is not even a need for penetration but a need to be desired. A need to know that somewhere in this world someone has my picture on their phone and their dick hand\finger on their clit and is thinking about me and reaching their highest state of self pleasure while thinking of me.

A need for myself to look in the mirror and feel myself turned on, where I can get hard just looking at myself, naked and just fucking feel myself.

I think when I was younger I gained self-validation and felt alive from fucking as many people as I fucking could, but I now I need validation from the one person that actually matters: myself, and he is fucking hard as hell to seduce.